Release days are like bees. (How’s that simile?) If you’re like me, you both hate and love bees…and I’m unusually (and pathetically) terrified of them…even though I’ve only been stung once…and even then, I hated them long before one stung me at a bus stop while I was innocently sitting, doing nothing to deserve the pain of a sting. (I promise.) But, despite all of this, bees are necessary. They are BEYOND necessary. Watch one, tiny documentary on them and you’ll know that. Reading The Secret Life of Bees helps the phobia too…not to mention getting a giant stuffed animal bee at the age of seven that you named Whassup-B when it was cool. Yay! The 90’s!
::bangs head against desk::
I cannot, for the life of me, get over my fear of bees, and much like my phobia of the little stingers, I cannot overcome the emotions of book release day. On one hand, I should bee excited—(See what I did there? See?)—on another, I’m petrified it’ll sting me. Sting me with what? I have yet to figure that out. A book release has, in fact, never stung me. I don’t even KNOW what I mean by that. How silly am I? I only know that there is a fear (a phobia) that doesn’t make much sense, and yet, I keep facing it over and over again, year after year.
What exactly am I afraid of?
I’ve written about this quite a few times on here, and have yet to get the answer I’m looking for. I think that’s because there are more than a couple of answers that would suffice. Originally, for instance, I used to think that it came down to sales, but then, I realized it didn’t. Not at all. Having just one reader is enough for me. (But having hundreds is great too. :P) I moved on from sales, thinking it must be something else, and went to book reviews, but realized a similar thing. Book reviews aren’t even for me; they are for the readers. So, I moved on to future contracts…and knew it wasn’t that because I’ve been okay thus far, but this did get me thinking about the future in a new way.
Maybe it comes down to not knowing where the next step will lead you. Maybe it comes down to a moment that you know your adventure has ended and now you must take a new one. Maybe it comes down to letting go of the past and moving forward into the future.
A book release is a new adventure for the reader, but it’s the moment of letting go of that adventure for the author.
It’s a very contradicting feeling, one I have yet to fully grasp, but then again, I think that’s the beauty of it. It’s complicated, and messy, and scary, and all-around lovely.
I think I’m ready for all the adventures to come.
Even if they sting,
Death Before Daylight releases in 10 days! You can pre-order the last book of The Timely Death Trilogy on Amazon, Barnes & Noble, iBooks, and basically everywhere books are sold. If you want to be a part of the release day, you can sign up for a release day blast by clicking here! I will also be sending out an opportunity to win prizes by helping via my newsletter.
That being said, some big things are happening, and I can’t wait to tell you all about them, but until then, check out the first book in the trilogy. Minutes Before Sunset is free! (Amazon, Barnes & Noble, iBooks.) The sequel is out too. In fact, we’ll be celebrating the sequel, Seconds Before Sunrise, September 7-18 during the blog tour.
That’s all for now. 😉 More to come soon!